๐ No I don't think so. I've just always been a very introverted person and have always struggled with things like public speaking in front of large groups - opposite to my brother who is in his element. That unfortunately makes me seem a more quiet and laid back person and not particularly forward or out-going or extroverted in interviews. Unfortunately that seems to mean I'm unemployable.
I'm not socially awkward or anything that extreme. I have plenty of friends, I have a long term girlfriend and the people who have taken a chance on me with the 2 jobs I've had have said I was always a good person to have around and everyone got on well with me. But I'm someone who prefers to stay in the background and get on with the job rather than be loud or the centre of attention and unfortunately that seems to be what employers are looking for.
Whatever is the case, I definitely have a problem. 4 years of rejections have made me lose all belief and faith in my abilities and how am I supposed to make an employer believe in me when I don't believe in myself? When I was at Uni being showered with awards and scholarships and being told how great my future was I used to think I was really something. In reality, I'm Arsenal! I'm just incredibly thankful for scholarships and generous grandparents meaning I don't have a massive student debt to worry about on top of living costs.